Recently I realized that I still have insidious worms in my head. They writhe around, mushing my brain into slimy toxic waste! My fear based ego loves them, it feeds them regularly, giving them special treats so they can get bigger and fatter. GROSS!!!
For years, instead of knowing the Truth for myself, I have allowed the worms to eat away at who I really am. I allowed them to create my stories.
When I got lovingly honest with myself I came up with these insidious worms (stories) and the fodder the ego feeds them:
I am afraid of success. Yep, you should be, if you get really successful you won’t have any privacy, you’ll be gone all the time and your husband won’t love you anymore.
I am a procrastinator. Maybe, but you could miss something really important on Facebook.
I am afraid of failure. Damn straight, it hurts to fail!
I am not a good writer. Seriously have you read John O’Donohue? That’s a good writer, you are a hack with a couple of ideas.
Mamacita answers other peoples’ questions, but not mine. Mamacita has much more important issues to deal with than your whiny stuff. She’s not supposed to help you, just others.
With all the people I have taught these principles, why don’t I put them into action? No kidding, you must be unteachable.
The truth is these are all just stories I have been telling myself for eons. No matter what my “story” of the day is, I can change the ending. For instance, I used to have” victim consciousness” because my father sexually abused me for years. I lived from that “victim conscious” for a good part of my life, until I realized that I didn’t have to live there anymore. I healed that wound and changed my life. Now that I know I can heal something that big, I can surely heal being afraid of success or failure, or stop procrastinating, or listen to Mamacita, or practice what I teach.
It’s as simple as withholding the worms fodder and feeding my brain and psyche some new material, such as:
I am successful. I am in control of my time, my life is balanced
I choose to complete my marketing and then write or read.
I love failure, it’s one step closer to finding the correct way or the genius answer.
I practice, practice, practice my writing. I love sharing my ideas through my writing.
Mamacita and my other guides are always available for me, they love helping me.
As I teach others these principles I learn them myself. I am completely honest with myself.
All those stories we tell ourselves, they’re just worms! We can eradicate the worms, if we will just stop feeding them!
Let’s ask ourselves right now:
What are the stories I tell myself?
What do I need to release to change a particular story?
Changing my thinking and my perspective, how do I create my new story?
How can I put the new story into action?
If something is hard it’s because we are out of integrity. We must ask ourselves, “Where am I not being true to myself?”
I am going to be in integrity with myself, eradicate the worms and watch how easy it gets. No matter what the story, with a new perspective, I CAN change it – I can change the ending.
If you know someone who could benefit from reading this in any way please share it with them. In fact I’m going to be really BOLD here and ask you to please share this message with at least one person, Thank You!
Here’s my BIG announcement….drum roll please!
Once again Mamacita leads me down a new path!
I have been given an incredible opportunity to manage a new wellness center right here in Uptown Sedona along with the founders. They are beautiful, loving lights who are creating a gorgeous space, which will be dedicated to promoting emotional, physical, mental and spiritual wellness. We will open Labor Day weekend and I am thrilled to be starting this new adventure! Until then, YES, I am still available for private sessions-readings, coaching and reiki here in Sedona, by phone, Skype or FaceTime.
Please contact me for your appointment as my time is limited:
I will continue to do my sessions at the new center when we open and will send details as we progress.
I can CHOOSE!
My dog Cheyenne chose to leave her physical body on June 11th. I used to say I didn’t know how I would stand it when she left me.
Even in her leaving she is teaching me lessons. Like the river in the picture there are two directions I can go. I can choose grief or I can choose joy. I experienced deep grief the first few days after Cheyenne passed. Then something magical happened.
As I would start to feel the pain Cheyenne would appear – she would laugh at me and tell me I could be sad if I wanted but reminding me that I could CHOOSE to be joyful instead. I can choose to remember all the fun we had hiking , or just sitting looking out over the beauty of Sedona. I can remember how good I felt witnessing her absolute joy as she rolled around in the grass or on the carpet scratching her head and snorting with pleasure. I can replay the short film in my head of her chasing a rabbit – always giving up just before catching one. I can feel the warmth of her against me in the frigid night when we camped at Monument Valley. I can watch her splash and play in Oak Creek,or run up Castle Rock. I can celebrate her unconditional love, her peace, her complete absorption in the moment. I can see those deep brown eyes as they demanded a treat after dinner. I remember her dignity and tolerance as smaller dogs would bark and nip at her when she looked at me as if to say, “Mom, what’s their problem?” I can remember how she met me at the door every day tail wagging, grinning ear to ear, dancing around, so happy to see me no matter what….
Or I can CHOOSE grief!
I always have a choice. This has been a quiet revelation for me that I can CHOOSE to be happy in the wake of her death. In the past I would have chosen to wallow in my grief. Now I feel the grief and then it’s as if I watch it drift away, followed quickly with joy that I got to share my life with this beautiful animal friend.
I still believe in honoring our emotions. I believe that if we don’t honor our emotions we generally stuff them in our bodies where they cause more havoc. I believe that I can let them come up, feel them and then watch them gently drift away.
And I believe that I can CHOOSE whether to stay in that place of grief or CHOOSE differently.
I’m choosing to:
See the grief
Feel the grief
Let it drift away
If you need help dealing with your choices I am always available for coaching…you can reach me at 602.999.2493 or email me BakeR@ThePsychiccoach.net.
Feel free to leave your comments below. Namaste,by
GET OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY, STEP INTO LOVE AND LET GO
As I embark on this new journey the question has been, “Will people accept me in this new role, will they be warm and fuzzy or will they be cold and serpent like? The answer of course is I have to follow my heart and follow Spirit.
Fear is what keeps me separate from you, if I let my fear control me then I will not reach out to you. I will not tell the world what I’m doing and I will continue to hide my light under the basket. I will not be able to love and support you if I continue to hide. And what I choose to do now is love and support you!
Just as I chose to step into this “snake pit”, I choose now to step into my true essence, yes it’s scary, yes sometimes it seems too big and I wonder what makes me so sure I can do this. But the Truth is I can’t do anything else now, I have chosen a new life and dammit I know it is the right thing. This trip to Peru working with Shamans in the Amazonian jungle and Andes Mountains was among the scariest 24 days of my life, but I came out a new person, ready to make this transformation, and indeed I could not deny the calling any longer.
Sometimes it’s necessary to get out of our own way. When we want to create or manifest something , WHO is in the way? Oh yeah baby, there’s three fingers pointing right back at you and me! Yep, it’s true, I’m the one who doesn’t think it’s possible, who comes up with a myriad of reasons why it won’t work, who fears the worst. What is the worst anyway? In my imagination the worst is I fail, lose everything, end up on the street – or in the woods in my case, with nothing and no one. Is this really possible – wow I think not! I’ve failed before, didn’t kill me, here I am in Sedona, living a great life. So what’s really in the way – FEAR!!! When I’m in FEAR, love does not exist. I’m certainly not loving myself when I’m in FEAR. I know that what I think, what I believe is what I will create, therefore if I continue with these negative thoughts, guess what I’m creating? Yes, that’s right, more icky, yucky crap. If I’m putting my faith in fear, then I’m certainly not putting my faith in Love/God/Spirit. Putting faith in fear happens when I let the fear monster take over my thoughts, when I put more credence in my fears than in Spirit’s ability to walk me through them. When I step out of Love and into Fear!
- I challenge you to think back about some situation, event or disaster in your life. Reenact the fear and worry…now tell me if the worry, the agony, the fear really changed anything. Did it free you up to act or did it paralyze you and hold you hostage?
- At some point were you able to let go of the fear? Did you surrender? What happened then?
My guess is when you stepped out of Fear, you were able to act, you made conscious decisions and moved forward. I remember the bus trip down the mountain in the Andes, hairpin curves, a creaky old bus, pouring rain in an intense thunder and lightning storm. I was terrified and the voice said, “I have brought you through all this, why would I let you die now? You have things to do.” I surrendered, relaxed and enjoyed one of the most stunning storms I had ever witnessed. The lightning was magnificent at that altitude!
When I put my faith in fear, then my prayers sound like this: Dear God, please help me, if you take care of this I will do/or not do_________ everyday I swear!!!
When I choose to step into Love, when I choose to put my faith in Love, my affirmative prayer now sounds like this: I know that God/Love is all there is. I am what God is, there is no separation. I hereby claim Love in everything I do, I come from Love in every situation, I put my faith in Love. I release these words into Universal Law. And so it is! Granted this is a simplified version but actually it’s all we have to do. I’ve used this simple version when witnessing an accident to send protection and love. You CAN choose to step into Love and out of Fear right now. Give up your addiction to worry and fear….choose Joy and Love instead!
Create a great week fortyfour times!