When I was first working with Mamacita she told me one day that I should get a silver travel trailer and travel around the country. I actually contemplated this for a couple of weeks…what the heck could she be thinking? I don’t even particularly like to travel, at least not that kind of travel. I like to immerse myself in a community, get to know the people, walk the streets, explore, eat local food, stay in one place for a couple of weeks. But travel around from place to place with not only myself but a large dog and cat in a silver bullet? I just wasn’t seeing this possibility.
I relayed this story to another psychic, her reply was, “oh Mamacita is a trickster!” “A trickster?”, I asked. “Why would Mamacita play tricks on me?” I was absolutely shocked that Mamacita would do this to me. My spirit guide would try to trick me. What?? I didn’t understand how she could do that. Couldn’t I trust her above all? What I later realized through counseling with Mamacita was that she wanted me to learn how to discern what MY truth was, no matter who told me to do something. She taught me to discern between my hearts true desire and someone else’s agenda. She taught me to discern between what fit’s my vision and when my ego needed to be stroked or inflated.
This would serve me well in later years when I was asked to work with a client who clearly needed a therapist, not a coach. My ego self was just sure I could help – that I could “save” this woman. Number one rule in my business – I don’t “save” anyone. Spirit works through me to guide people to their own answers, with questions and sometimes wise suggestions. But it’s not me – it’s my higher self – connecting with their higher self. As soon as I fall into the savior trap I know I’m in ego and it’s time to back away! This then was another clear indication of a trickster moment, only this time the trickster was my ego. Another test, thankfully I passed.
Where or when in your life do you get fooled by your ego self? When do you feel challenged to stand in your Truth?
Often when I make a decision coming from ego, it is fraught with fear…fear is the root cause, and consequently it will usually end badly one way or another. Recently I allowed a woman who called late morning on a Sunday to make an appointment for that afternoon because she was only in town for the day from Phoenix. This clearly does not fit my vision as I have chosen NOT to work on Sundays. Instead of asking the proper questions my ego asked, What if she decides to become a coaching client and wants to work with me long term? Wouldn’t it behoove me to work with her just this one Sunday? So I rearranged my day, sent my husband away, put the animals in their respective rooms and waited for the client. Ten minutes before she was scheduled to show up the phone rang, she was canceling!
When I disrespect myself and my vision, I attract people who disrespect me. This decision clearly came from fear, I’m building a new business, therefore sometimes I think I must do anything and everything to make that happen, even when it goes against my truth/my vision. It may seem like a small waver to work on a Sunday and sometimes it is justifiable if I’m working with a client who respects me and my time. But I knew almost immediately that this wasn’t going to happen. Everything about it felt forced!
Here are some questions to ask yourself when you are trying to make a decision:
- Does this serve my higher purpose?
- Does this fit my vision? (if you don’t have a vision, that may be the first step)
- Am I coming from heart or from ego?
- Will this bring me joy? Peace? Satisfaction?
- Does it serve the community, my clients, the world?
- Am I forcing it?
Mamacita would tell you to go within and ask – that you and only you have the answer. Trust your inner knowing. If your decision doesn’t “feel” right, if you feel like you’re forcing it, then you probably need to step back. Stop, take a look at your answers above and really check in with your heart self to find the truth.
Your true answer is found within!
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Let me introduce myself…
It seems that all my life I have colored outside the lines — sometimes it’s fun and sometimes it’s scary. This is why I can attune to your needs; I have been there and back! I too have had those days when I wondered who I was, where I was going and what it all means anyway. I have felt the pain and the ecstasy.
Just prior to turning 40, when my partner was dying of lung cancer I started having flashbacks of being raped. At first it was flashbacks of being raped by two men, which I consciously remembered as being beaten up by them, but not raped. But then I was having flashbacks of my father’s sexual abuse. I had done a great job of disassociating as a child and again as an adult…going out of body to escape the horror of what was going on.
Ten years of intense therapy ranging from psychodrama to holistic breath-work to traditional therapy ensued. Along this path I came to the freedom of forgiveness — for myself, my father and even for the men who raped me. I learned that anger and rage kept me the victim. Removing the anger was like cutting out a tumor that was eating me alive…Love was the answer, self-love first and foremost, then love for others.
This gave me compassion and an incredible insight into people’s inner worlds. I can help you go into the dark and bring forth the light. And, if your world is already light, wouldn’t you like to create more? I would like you to experience and open to deep abiding love for yourself and others, to know the profound freedom and joy that come from this Love. Together we can shape-shift your world and create a new paradigm!
I work with you through intuitive work, spiritual life coaching, and empowering workshops.
You bring your willingness to open and expand on all levels, your inner wisdom and creativity and most of all your desire to move forward!
Now I would like to gently yet firmly help guide you to a rich, vibrant life!