Recently I realized that I still have insidious worms in my head. They writhe around, mushing my brain into slimy toxic waste! My fear based ego loves them, it feeds them regularly, giving them special treats so they can get bigger and fatter. GROSS!!!
For years, instead of knowing the Truth for myself, I have allowed the worms to eat away at who I really am. I allowed them to create my stories.
When I got lovingly honest with myself I came up with these insidious worms (stories) and the fodder the ego feeds them:
I am afraid of success. Yep, you should be, if you get really successful you won’t have any privacy, you’ll be gone all the time and your husband won’t love you anymore.
I am a procrastinator. Maybe, but you could miss something really important on Facebook.
I am afraid of failure. Damn straight, it hurts to fail!
I am not a good writer. Seriously have you read John O’Donohue? That’s a good writer, you are a hack with a couple of ideas.
Mamacita answers other peoples’ questions, but not mine. Mamacita has much more important issues to deal with than your whiny stuff. She’s not supposed to help you, just others.
With all the people I have taught these principles, why don’t I put them into action? No kidding, you must be unteachable.
The truth is these are all just stories I have been telling myself for eons. No matter what my “story” of the day is, I can change the ending. For instance, I used to have” victim consciousness” because my father sexually abused me for years. I lived from that “victim conscious” for a good part of my life, until I realized that I didn’t have to live there anymore. I healed that wound and changed my life. Now that I know I can heal something that big, I can surely heal being afraid of success or failure, or stop procrastinating, or listen to Mamacita, or practice what I teach.
It’s as simple as withholding the worms fodder and feeding my brain and psyche some new material, such as:
I am successful. I am in control of my time, my life is balanced
I choose to complete my marketing and then write or read.
I love failure, it’s one step closer to finding the correct way or the genius answer.
I practice, practice, practice my writing. I love sharing my ideas through my writing.
Mamacita and my other guides are always available for me, they love helping me.
As I teach others these principles I learn them myself. I am completely honest with myself.
All those stories we tell ourselves, they’re just worms! We can eradicate the worms, if we will just stop feeding them!
Let’s ask ourselves right now:
What are the stories I tell myself?
What do I need to release to change a particular story?
Changing my thinking and my perspective, how do I create my new story?
How can I put the new story into action?
If something is hard it’s because we are out of integrity. We must ask ourselves, “Where am I not being true to myself?”
I am going to be in integrity with myself, eradicate the worms and watch how easy it gets. No matter what the story, with a new perspective, I CAN change it – I can change the ending.
If you know someone who could benefit from reading this in any way please share it with them. In fact I’m going to be really BOLD here and ask you to please share this message with at least one person, Thank You!
Here’s my BIG announcement….drum roll please!
Once again Mamacita leads me down a new path!
I have been given an incredible opportunity to manage a new wellness center right here in Uptown Sedona along with the founders. They are beautiful, loving lights who are creating a gorgeous space, which will be dedicated to promoting emotional, physical, mental and spiritual wellness. We will open Labor Day weekend and I am thrilled to be starting this new adventure! Until then, YES, I am still available for private sessions-readings, coaching and reiki here in Sedona, by phone, Skype or FaceTime.
Please contact me for your appointment as my time is limited:
I will continue to do my sessions at the new center when we open and will send details as we progress.
Connect with Spirit
Several years ago when I first became a Reiki practitioner I went to my teacher, Laurelle Gaia, and asked her if she ever got bored doing Reiki. I had just done my first long session and found myself drifting away. Fortunately she didn’t smack me, she just answered with a resounding “NO”.
I walked away with my tail between my legs to think about it.
Usually the time flew by when I was working with a client, but occasionally I would find myself counting the minutes. The next time that I got bored, I checked in to find out what was going on. What I realized was that I was disconnected from Spirit, I wasn’t channeling Reiki energy; I was in ego and when I’m in ego I can’t channel anything. My ego self had to get out of the way and allow Spirit’s healing energy to channel through me. As soon as I remembered that Spirit does the work through me, I reconnected and I don’t get “bored” anymore. Just the other day I did back to back hour long Reiki sessions for six different people without any boredom. Six hours of Reiki and never a second of disconnection! In fact the only issue I have now is going over the allotted time, because my ego self is completely gone when Spirit takes over. The really cool thing is I don’t need a car to drive home anymore, I just float! LOL
This a perfect metaphor for my life. Whenever my ego self gets in the way I lose touch with Spirit and find it hard to get the Truth for myself. The disconnection also happens when I get too busy, I will find myself looking “out there” for answers instead of going within for the Truth. My fear based ego still believes it has all the answers and fights to keep me under control. Yet, the answers that will truly serve my highest and best good come from that quiet place within, where Spirit, my guides and my higher self reside. As long as I take the time and make the space to get connected the answers are there.
If you have issues with meditation or hearing your answers it’s likely that your ego gets in the way. Isn’t it your ego that thinks it has too much to do to be still and meditate? Isn’t it your ego that creates “monkey mind”, all those busy thoughts that spin around and around distracting you from your inner wisdom?
When do you get disconnected from the wisdom of your higher self, guides and Spirit? How can you connect today? To receive all the gifts Spirit has to offer carve out some time and space to truly connect with your inner wisdom. Give yourself the gift of connection, the gift of peace and the gift of wisdom.
Love and joy, BakeRby
When I was first working with Mamacita, my spirit guide, she told me to purchase a Silver Bullet travel trailer and go travel around the country. I was stunned and confused at this advice because I don’t particularly like to travel…at least not that kind of travel. I prefer to go somewhere and stay put for two weeks, get to know the locals, walk everywhere and relax. The thought of traveling around, a day here, a couple of days there, sounded like my version of hell.
After a few days of angst I finally said “NO”. I then asked Mamacita what on earth she was thinking and why she would tell me to do something that was so revolting to me. Mamacita in her infinite wisdom told me that she wanted me to learn how to say NO. That it didn’t matter who told me to do something, Jesus, Buddha, the angels or her, if it wasn’t right for me I could say NO! This was huge for me, and I knew that if she had just told me I could do this it wouldn’t have had the same impact. I needed to go through that trial to really assimilate the lesson.
When you’re hearing the wisdom of your Spirit Guides it is:
- It resonates with your Truth
- It speaks to your heart instead of your ego
- It may challenge you
- It feels right
- And you can say NO if it doesn’t fit for you
If the guidance does not fit these parameters ask again. Check with your guides that you are hearing correctly, sit with them and take the time to understand. If you do not get an answer when you ask, that is an answer. No answer means you need to reflect more and maybe ask again in a few days. Or possibly you aren’t supposed to do anything right now.
Remember to surrender, let go and get out of your own way. The answer will come. Ask yourself, “Is this forced?”. If it feels forced at all take a step back and check again. It’s okay to wait for the truth.
Apparently I didn’t completely learn the lesson because about two years ago I got a message to give one of my rings to a client. A ring I really loved! After some back and forth I gave her the ring but never felt right about it. I was angry and frustrated when I came home and then I realized that an entity I had removed from a client earlier that day had attached to me. It was this nasty entity that told me to give the ring to my client. How did I finally know that? The decision wasn’t right for me, I felt bad and I was mad as hell that I had done this stupid thing. If I had followed my Truth I would never have allowed that nasty entity to influence me like that. I could have said NO and sent the ring later if I was still getting this guidance. Believe me I definitely learned the lesson of saying NO, that fateful day!
Clearing the entity is another story for another day, just please understand that you can always say NO, even to your guides (especially to a nasty entity posing as your guide). Follow your Truth!
If you would like to learn more about working with guides, clearing nasty entities, healing past lives, playing with energy and much, much more, join me at the upcoming Dance in the Light women’s retreat, June 6-9, 2014, here in Sedona, AZ. For all the details click here Dance in the Light.by